Practice

3/28/05 (Friday)

Sun, morning

Heard loud sound

from SUV at

2 AM, then it goes

off, did ~~LRBP~~

LRBP to ward off,

after hit the deck

for a while

11:30–12:30 PM Conversation

with Soror Hell (Barbados)

& Sam Webster – hope

to gain initiation

3/31/05 Dream $\rightarrow$ taking

over responsibility for

lapses

Haven’t been able to

do any home rituals,

but will start doing

LRBP in bathroom to keep

it going –

Banishing dagger arrived,

have to email prev.

owner to see that

it wasn’t used to

cut any living flesh. I

wonder if it needs

to be consecrated?

to OSOGD, don’t

have to pay lodge fees

cause I long distance,

need to find

Scott on Theurgy &

also look “the Cult of

Tara” about Tibetan

magick.

Don Milo is OSOGD initiate

so I must be on right

path,

Seems like it doesn’t,

not sure.

Should move on to

Crowley Star Ruby,

because it has the

new aeon names.

Went to gnostic

mass on Sunday

Interesting experience.

Some argue that

a ritualized mass is uncreative,

a rote re-run of

Crowley’s ritual, a cult

Used finger instead of

the butter knife, since

I need a real magick

dagger, not some prosaic

butter knife used for

kitchen.

Dream:

someone try to

force us to pay

exorbitant cult-like fees

to learn magick

3/22/05 Dream

couldn’t sell “cursed

property”.

3/23/05

“Don’t know the world –

running around, trying to

sell & so forth”

3/24/04

– On trial for

life, over magick.

reliving witch trials?

3/25/04

still have some fear,

suppression, oppression

12 AM – Tai Chi –

a pad w/

anger / irritation