5/26/91 Son: The insanity of the world is driving me insane Mom: Oh, how cute, he’s become an angry young man. Dad: It’s just a stage, soon he’ll be just like us. We were like him once, all of us, but look how happy we are now. Son: I think I’ll go blow my brains…

5/14/91 Living in Irvine Is like playing poker With a pack of index cards. 5/15/91 “Standard” They say that God don’t wash his hands, They say that God created man, But just who is this God thing anyway? Just what’s this God thing anyway. They say that God don’t get no sleep They say that…

4/1/91 Imagine me, First child of my mother! 4/4/91 There would only be 3 laws. First, all fear would be abolished. Next all hatred would disappear, be- cause no one would fear. Then finally all greed and ambition for power over one another would be done away with. Greed’s got nothing to do with money,…

3/9/91 Father says to son “Ya done good son, ya done real good, now wash the blood off ya’ hands and come on inside, your mother made your favorite, meatloaf.” by turning in Dash to Hackett, his manager Erin, ends up jacking off again, goes to confession, but priest says its a sinful, lonely thing,…

3/2/91 ~~Warm, afternoon~~ The Straight Man The character actor sits alone, ~~in his dressing room,~~ ~~behind~~, m_sturbating, a piece Saran-wrap is spread out across his lap and part of the sofa, he doesn’t want to leave a stain. “Goddamn leading man,” he says as he spurts, “He even gets the ugly ones, like he’s the…

3/2/91 In the end you take your stand alone. no one gives a shit. The eye of the world all fixed on self. Your lung a deep black hole in my own chest. Why my ask a girl aphrodisiac I We swallow up into little islands of flesh, the air between us expands, till the…

2/27/91 — If you study too much, you’re neglecting your education. – Live! Every morning, when I wake up, I feel like Rip Van Winkle, the stubble has grown on my face like an unkempt lawn, and my mouth tastes like a cemetery.

2/27/91 I understand it. The junkey is the most profound expression of desperation. They tell him to ~~leave~~ it or leave it, so he seceeds from America, into his own country, the country of his own mind. ~~He~~ Hippies tried to change things, and when they couldn’t change it, many of them became junkeys, alcoholics,…

2/25/91 As Grandma shoved me into the oven, I re- alized just what she meant when she said: “We must to fatten you up.” I thought that she just enjoyed cooking for me and I felt a bit betrayed as she turned up the temper- ature and I relized that she ~~was~~ really enjoyed cooking…