Meditation

3/3/05

morning

12 AM –

double wands,

relaxation

Weather:

rainy

Body:

lungs

hurt, hurt

Evening

11 pm

Weather:

dry

Body: relaxed,

little asthma

Pentagram work

concentrated on

seeing the blue

light

3/3/05

borrychem, top of a

group of 4 loud

people who want

to stop practice

3/4/05

Evening 8:30pm

breath of fire,

HUM I HUM mantra

body: lungs still hurt

weather: dry, but

wet street

result: total clearing

of lungs, but

some amplified aggression

3/5/05 Dream -> fled

too fast to record,

but I’m betting there’s

a repetitive pattern

related to lawsuit

DATE: 3/5/05 DAY: ~~SUNDAY~~

TIME: 10:40 AM

Phase of moon: 3 past last

quarter

weather: Sunny, not too

warm

Emotions: Just had fight

about pres / leader.

Name of ritual:

Tarot meditation

its supposed to connect

each of the pentagrams

to each other, but

the first time I

drew a circle about

each pentagram,

but then I

re-ran the ritual

correctly. Now I

suppose the bathroom

is well protected,

but need altar &

oil & katha, etc.

I felt calm, body was

normal, but I didn’t

do yoga, just the

meditation, but also

had 9mg of melatonin,

so that helps get into

the mind-state.

After I had some

strange dreams, but

had too fitful sleep

to remember much.

Heard a screeching sound

outside later on,

but could’ve been

drunk girl coming home

from date.

3/15/05

9:00am

Dream:

young ladies rapidly

degrade into old

crones in front of my

eyes.

11:30pm L.R.B.P.

— used osogd ritual

instead of DK’s, and

osogd is much easier

to perform.

Now the house has a

deep sense of calm.

Did the ritual in main

room, not bathroom.

Now I need to do

midnight sunrise

salutation

11:54pm sunrise salutation

did a short 1 min

sunrise salutation

to greet galactic sun

(center) just before

midnight

(Illustration page containing line sketches of geometric shapes, sails/triangles, and horizontal waves)

3-16-05

$5 + 6 = 11 = \text{I \& I}$

(diagrams and vertical symbol groupings)

Dream: Force used

to control, wicked

group, co-ercion.

3-17-05

3 Ahhs $\rightarrow$ worked on

3 Ahhs, visualizing

energy coming in, then

passing thru my head.

Did 2 min Zazen