The Temple of Tarot

Category: magick

Ritual, dream work and trance states.

  • Genesis Passing

    Genesis Passing

    2020-03-16

    Back in 2017 I was able to see one of her last Psychic TV shows. Compared to say the Rolling Stones it was a small venue but the music was amazing and the light show and video.

    Now she’s gone, cancer taken her in the end.

    Ultimately all of us have a beginnging and end to a particular incarnation.

    We don’t know how many will fall to this pandemic for example.

    Now we don’t even know what will happen to music going forward.

    Bands and artists made their living off lives shows.

    When they get too sick like Genesis did they no longer have that income coming in and often have to live off the largess of fans.

    Its sad that all people whether they’re senators or artists have access to healthcare.

    But at the same time we all have a start and end to our incarnations barring the Singularity and some kind of brain dump into a machine.

    But could such a “Singularity” be a fate worse than death?

    Its hard to begin to describe the cultural impact of this artist and writer.

    Her Topy Bible is a good starting point.

    She also has an artist page on Spotify.

    So it Begins.

  • Lapses

    Lapses

    3/31/05 Dream $\rightarrow$ taking

    over responsibility for

    lapses

    Haven’t been able to

    do any home rituals,

    but will start doing

    LRBP in bathroom to keep

    it going –

    Banishing dagger arrived,

    have to email prev.

    owner to see that

    it wasn’t used to

    cut any living flesh. I

    wonder if it needs

    to be consecrated?

    to OSOGD, don’t

    have to pay lodge fees

    cause I long distance,

    need to find

    Scott on Theurgy &

    also look “the Cult of

    Tara” about Tibetan

    magick.

    Don Milo is OSOGD initiate

    so I must be on right

    path,

    3/28/05 (Friday)

    Sun, morning

    Heard loud sound

    from SUV at

    2 AM, then it goes

    off, did ~~LRBP~~

    LRBP to ward off,

    after hit the deck

    for a while

    11:30–12:30 PM Conversation

    with Soror Hell (Barbados)

    & Sam Webster – hope

    to gain initiation

    3/24/04

    – On trial for

    life, over magick.

    reliving witch trials?

    3/25/04

    still have some fear,

    suppression, oppression

    12 AM – Tai Chi –

    a pad w/

    anger / irritation

    3/22/05 Dream

    couldn’t sell “cursed

    property”.

    3/23/05

    “Don’t know the world –

    running around, trying to

    sell & so forth”

    3-21-05

    11:50 AM L.R.B.P.

    finally got it correct,

    including drawing the

    circle from center

    to center, the

    space I did it in

    has a different feel,

    like there’s more

    energy there, now

    I can add the other

    part of making the

    gesture that DMK

    adds.

    Used finger instead of

    the butter knife, since

    I need a real magick

    dagger, not some prosaic

    butter knife used for

    kitchen.

    Dream:

    someone try to

    force us to pay

    exorbitant cult-like fees

    to learn magick

    3/20/05

    Dream – worried

    worried for the estate

    of a magician passed

    on, realizing it’s ok to

    show the man having

    fun & joking, it’s ok to

    have sense of humor.

    3/19/05

    4 AM – Lesser Banishing

    pentagram – always

    good before bed,

    try to clear out

    the space, energy

    down the street,

    cops, paramedics,

    needed to cleanse

    space

    Dream – always running

    from something?

    (pentagram sketch)

  • Egyptian Dreams

    Egyptian Dreams

    3-21-05

    11:50 AM L.R.B.P.

    finally got it correct,

    including drawing the

    circle from center

    to center, the

    space I did it in

    has a different feel,

    like there’s more

    energy there, now

    I can add the other

    part of making the

    gesture that DMK

    adds.

    3/20/05

    Dream – worried

    worried for the estate

    of a magician passed

    on, realizing it’s ok to

    show the man having

    fun & joking, it’s ok to

    have sense of humor.

    3/19/05

    4 AM – Lesser Banishing

    pentagram – always

    good before bed,

    try to clear out

    the space, energy

    down the street,

    cops, paramedics,

    needed to cleanse

    space

    Dream – always running

    from something?

    (pentagram sketch)

    4-1-05

    Dream $\rightarrow$ accuring

    anti-authority film

    4-3-05

    Didn’t remember

    New #

    4/4/05

    $\rightarrow$ 3/21/05 L.R.B.P.

    lacking resource.

    Egyptian & Greek

    paganism, because

    its not the then

    still illegal indigenous

    witchcraft of Britain

    (scribbled-out diagram text)

    Crowley had to shade

    the language in terms

    of human sacrifice

    because of the

    obscenity laws in

    Britain, it was a

    crime to write

    about sex, and

    even a crime to

    write about witchcraft.

    So you see, the

    emphasis on

    He’s not talking

    about an actual

    grown kid. As soon

    as the sperm enters

    the egg, it’s corrupted

    from its original source,

    He was talking about

    sexual acts that

    don’t result in

    procreation. So the

    sperm is “the purest

    male child”, because

    it’s that pure male

    potential.

    Zen roshi English

    madness caused

    some unfortunate

    obfuscation and

    confusion.

    Back at the beginning

    of the Christian

    church sperm

    was considered sacred,

    so when Crowley

    says “the best

    sacrifice is a child

    of highest int. . .”

    of personality.

    But they don’t really

    get it.

    ~~these same critics~~

    ~~usually have no problem~~

    ~~following their~~

    Well, to each their own,

    Certainly there’s a

    huge latitude for

    acting in anything.

    Crowley had some

    interesting insights, but

    his twisted sense

    of humor & general

    Seems like it doesn’t,

    not sure.

    Should move on to

    Crowley Star Ruby,

    because it has the

    new aeon names.

    Went to gnostic

    mass on Sunday

    Interesting experience.

    Some argue that

    a ritualized mass is uncreative,

    a rote re-run of

    Crowley’s ritual, a cult

  • Practice

    Practice

    3/28/05 (Friday)

    Sun, morning

    Heard loud sound

    from SUV at

    2 AM, then it goes

    off, did ~~LRBP~~

    LRBP to ward off,

    after hit the deck

    for a while

    11:30–12:30 PM Conversation

    with Soror Hell (Barbados)

    & Sam Webster – hope

    to gain initiation

    3/31/05 Dream $\rightarrow$ taking

    over responsibility for

    lapses

    Haven’t been able to

    do any home rituals,

    but will start doing

    LRBP in bathroom to keep

    it going –

    Banishing dagger arrived,

    have to email prev.

    owner to see that

    it wasn’t used to

    cut any living flesh. I

    wonder if it needs

    to be consecrated?

    to OSOGD, don’t

    have to pay lodge fees

    cause I long distance,

    need to find

    Scott on Theurgy &

    also look “the Cult of

    Tara” about Tibetan

    magick.

    Don Milo is OSOGD initiate

    so I must be on right

    path,

    Seems like it doesn’t,

    not sure.

    Should move on to

    Crowley Star Ruby,

    because it has the

    new aeon names.

    Went to gnostic

    mass on Sunday

    Interesting experience.

    Some argue that

    a ritualized mass is uncreative,

    a rote re-run of

    Crowley’s ritual, a cult

    Used finger instead of

    the butter knife, since

    I need a real magick

    dagger, not some prosaic

    butter knife used for

    kitchen.

    Dream:

    someone try to

    force us to pay

    exorbitant cult-like fees

    to learn magick

    3/22/05 Dream

    couldn’t sell “cursed

    property”.

    3/23/05

    “Don’t know the world –

    running around, trying to

    sell & so forth”

    3/24/04

    – On trial for

    life, over magick.

    reliving witch trials?

    3/25/04

    still have some fear,

    suppression, oppression

    12 AM – Tai Chi –

    a pad w/

    anger / irritation

  • Sacrifices

    Sacrifices

    3/28/05 (Friday)

    Sun, morning

    Heard loud sound

    from SUV at

    2 AM, then it goes

    off, did ~~LRBP~~

    LRBP to ward off,

    after hit the deck

    for a while

    11:30–12:30 PM Conversation

    with Soror Hell (Barbados)

    & Sam Webster – hope

    to gain initiation

    3/31/05 Dream $\rightarrow$ taking

    over responsibility for

    lapses

    Haven’t been able to

    do any home rituals,

    but will start doing

    LRBP in bathroom to keep

    it going –

    Banishing dagger arrived,

    have to email prev.

    owner to see that

    it wasn’t used to

    cut any living flesh. I

    wonder if it needs

    to be consecrated?

    to OSOGD, don’t

    have to pay lodge fees

    cause I long distance,

    need to find

    Scott on Theurgy &

    also look “the Cult of

    Tara” about Tibetan

    magick.

    Don Milo is OSOGD initiate

    so I must be on right

    path,

    Seems like it doesn’t,

    not sure.

    Should move on to

    Crowley Star Ruby,

    because it has the

    new aeon names.

    Went to gnostic

    mass on Sunday

    Interesting experience.

    Some argue that

    a ritualized mass is uncreative,

    a rote re-run of

    Crowley’s ritual, a cult

    of personality.

    But they don’t really

    get it.

    ~~these same critics~~

    ~~usually have no problem~~

    ~~following their~~

    Well, to each their own,

    Certainly there’s a

    huge latitude for

    acting in anything.

    Crowley had some

    interesting insights, but

    his twisted sense

    of humor & general

    Zen roshi English

    madness caused

    some unfortunate

    obfuscation and

    confusion.

    Back at the beginning

    of the Christian

    church sperm

    was considered sacred,

    so when Crowley

    says “the best

    sacrifice is a child

    of highest int. . .”

  • Sunday Gnostic Mass

    Sunday Gnostic Mass

    3/31/05

    Dream $\rightarrow$ taking

    over responsibility for

    lapses

    Haven’t been able to

    do any home rituals,

    but will start doing

    LRBP in bathroom to keep

    it going –

    Banishing dagger arrived,

    have to email prev.

    owner to see that

    it wasn’t used to

    cut any living flesh. I

    wonder if it needs

    to be consecrated?

    to OSOGD, don’t

    have to pay lodge fees

    cause I long distance,

    need to find

    Scott on Theurgy &

    also look “the Cult of

    Tara” about Tibetan

    magick.

    Don Milo is OSOGD initiate

    so I must be on right

    path,

    Seems like it doesn’t,

    not sure.

    Should move on to

    Crowley Star Ruby,

    because it has the

    new aeon names.

    Went to gnostic

    mass on Sunday

    Interesting experience.

    Some argue that

    a ritualized mass is uncreative,

    a rote re-run of

    Crowley’s ritual, a cult

  • LRBP

    LRBP

    Dream

    Alienated from fine society,

    running, trying to get into

    club, kicked out by bouncer

    for no shirt

    3-18-05

    Dream

    $\rightarrow$ more crowded, blocked

    ~~by trees~~ by brambles

    Scientol. trying to con-

    vince about the

    immortality of LKH

    Tarot meditation – reading

    Duquette’s Thoth Tarot,

    about Archangel

    3/19/05

    4 AM – Lesser Banishing

    pentagram – always

    good before bed,

    try to clear out

    the space, energy

    down the street,

    cops, paramedics,

    needed to cleanse

    space

    Dream – always running

    from something?

    (pentagram sketch)

    3/20/05

    Dream – worried

    worried for the estate

    of a magician passed

    on, realizing it’s ok to

    show the man having

    fun & joking, it’s ok to

    have sense of humor.

    3-21-05

    11:50 AM L.R.B.P.

    finally got it correct,

    including drawing the

    circle from center

    to center, the

    space I did it in

    has a different feel,

    like there’s more

    energy there, now

    I can add the other

    part of making the

    gesture that DMK

    adds.

    Used finger instead of

    the butter knife, since

    I need a real magick

    dagger, not some prosaic

    butter knife used for

    kitchen.

    Dream:

    someone try to

    force us to pay

    exorbitant cult-like fees

    to learn magick

    3/22/05 Dream

    couldn’t sell “cursed

    property”.

    3/23/05

    “Don’t know the world –

    running around, trying to

    sell & so forth”

    3/24/04

    – On trial for

    life, over magick.

    reliving witch trials?

    3/25/04

    still have some fear,

    suppression, oppression

    12 AM – Tai Chi –

    a pad w/

    anger / irritation

    3/28/05 (Friday)

    Sun, morning

    Heard loud sound

    from SUV at

    2 AM, then it goes

    off, did ~~LRBP~~

    LRBP to ward off,

    after hit the deck

    for a while

    11:30–12:30 PM Conversation

    with Soror Hell (Barbados)

    & Sam Webster – hope

    to gain initiation

    to OSOGD, don’t

    have to pay lodge fees

    cause I long distance,

    need to find

    Scott on Theurgy &

    also look “the Cult of

    Tara” about Tibetan

    magick.

    Don Milo is OSOGD initiate

    so I must be on right

    path,

    3/31/05 Dream $\rightarrow$ taking

    over responsibility for

    lapses

    Haven’t been able to

    do any home rituals,

    but will start doing

    LRBP in bathroom to keep

    it going –

    Banishing dagger arrived,

    have to email prev.

    owner to see that

    it wasn’t used to

    cut any living flesh. I

    wonder if it needs

    to be consecrated?

  • Another Dream

    Another Dream

    3-18-05

    Alienated from fine society,

    running, trying to get into

    club, kicked out by bouncer

    for no shirt

    Dream

    $\rightarrow$ more crowded, blocked

    ~~by trees~~ by brambles

    Scientol. trying to con-

    vince about the

    immortality of LKH

    Tarot meditation – reading

    Duquette’s Thoth Tarot,

    about Archangel

    3/19/05

    4 AM – Lesser Banishing

    pentagram – always

    good before bed,

    try to clear out

    the space, energy

    down the street,

    cops, paramedics,

    needed to cleanse

    space

    Dream – always running

    from something?

    (pentagram sketch)

    3/20/05

    Dream – worried

    worried for the estate

    of a magician passed

    on, realizing it’s ok to

    show the man having

    fun & joking, it’s ok to

    have sense of humor.

    3-21-05

    11:50 AM L.R.B.P.

    finally got it correct,

    including drawing the

    circle from center

    to center, the

    space I did it in

    has a different feel,

    like there’s more

    energy there, now

    I can add the other

    part of making the

    gesture that DMK

    adds.

    Used finger instead of

    the butter knife, since

    I need a real magick

    dagger, not some prosaic

    butter knife used for

    kitchen.

    Dream:

    someone try to

    force us to pay

    exorbitant cult-like fees

    to learn magick

    3/22/05 Dream

    couldn’t sell “cursed

    property”.

    3/23/05

    “Don’t know the world –

    running around, trying to

    sell & so forth”

    3/24/04

    – On trial for

    life, over magick.

    reliving witch trials?

    3/25/04

    still have some fear,

    suppression, oppression

    12 AM – Tai Chi –

    a pad w/

    anger / irritation

    3/28/05 (Friday)

    Sun, morning

    Heard loud sound

    from SUV at

    2 AM, then it goes

    off, did ~~LRBP~~

    LRBP to ward off,

    after hit the deck

    for a while

    11:30–12:30 PM Conversation

    with Soror Hell (Barbados)

    & Sam Webster – hope

    to gain initiation

    to OSOGD, don’t

    have to pay lodge fees

    cause I long distance,

    need to find

    Scott on Theurgy &

    also look “the Cult of

    Tara” about Tibetan

    magick.

    Don Milo is OSOGD initiate

    so I must be on right

    path,

    3/31/05 Dream $\rightarrow$ taking

    over responsibility for

    lapses

    Haven’t been able to

    do any home rituals,

    but will start doing

    LRBP in bathroom to keep

    it going –

    Banishing dagger arrived,

    have to email prev.

    owner to see that

    it wasn’t used to

    cut any living flesh. I

    wonder if it needs

    to be consecrated?

  • Meditation

    Meditation

    3/3/05

    morning

    12 AM –

    double wands,

    relaxation

    Weather:

    rainy

    Body:

    lungs

    hurt, hurt

    Evening

    11 pm

    Weather:

    dry

    Body: relaxed,

    little asthma

    Pentagram work

    concentrated on

    seeing the blue

    light

    3/3/05

    borrychem, top of a

    group of 4 loud

    people who want

    to stop practice

    3/4/05

    Evening 8:30pm

    breath of fire,

    HUM I HUM mantra

    body: lungs still hurt

    weather: dry, but

    wet street

    result: total clearing

    of lungs, but

    some amplified aggression

    3/5/05 Dream -> fled

    too fast to record,

    but I’m betting there’s

    a repetitive pattern

    related to lawsuit

    DATE: 3/5/05 DAY: ~~SUNDAY~~

    TIME: 10:40 AM

    Phase of moon: 3 past last

    quarter

    weather: Sunny, not too

    warm

    Emotions: Just had fight

    about pres / leader.

    Name of ritual:

    Tarot meditation

    its supposed to connect

    each of the pentagrams

    to each other, but

    the first time I

    drew a circle about

    each pentagram,

    but then I

    re-ran the ritual

    correctly. Now I

    suppose the bathroom

    is well protected,

    but need altar &

    oil & katha, etc.

    I felt calm, body was

    normal, but I didn’t

    do yoga, just the

    meditation, but also

    had 9mg of melatonin,

    so that helps get into

    the mind-state.

    After I had some

    strange dreams, but

    had too fitful sleep

    to remember much.

    Heard a screeching sound

    outside later on,

    but could’ve been

    drunk girl coming home

    from date.

    3/15/05

    9:00am

    Dream:

    young ladies rapidly

    degrade into old

    crones in front of my

    eyes.

    11:30pm L.R.B.P.

    — used osogd ritual

    instead of DK’s, and

    osogd is much easier

    to perform.

    Now the house has a

    deep sense of calm.

    Did the ritual in main

    room, not bathroom.

    Now I need to do

    midnight sunrise

    salutation

    11:54pm sunrise salutation

    did a short 1 min

    sunrise salutation

    to greet galactic sun

    (center) just before

    midnight

    (Illustration page containing line sketches of geometric shapes, sails/triangles, and horizontal waves)

    3-16-05

    $5 + 6 = 11 = \text{I \& I}$

    (diagrams and vertical symbol groupings)

    Dream: Force used

    to control, wicked

    group, co-ercion.

    3-17-05

    3 Ahhs $\rightarrow$ worked on

    3 Ahhs, visualizing

    energy coming in, then

    passing thru my head.

    Did 2 min Zazen

  • Double Wands

    Double Wands

    3/3/05

    morning

    12 AM –

    double wands,

    relaxation

    Weather:

    rainy

    Body:

    lungs

    hurt, hurt

    Evening

    11 pm

    Weather:

    dry

    Body: relaxed,

    little asthma

    Pentagram work

    concentrated on

    seeing the blue

    light

    3/3/05

    borrychem, top of a

    group of 4 loud

    people who want

    to stop practice

    3/4/05

    Evening 8:30pm

    breath of fire,

    HUM I HUM mantra

    body: lungs still hurt

    weather: dry, but

    wet street

    result: total clearing

    of lungs, but

    some amplified aggression

    3/5/05 Dream -> fled

    too fast to record,

    but I’m betting there’s

    a repetitive pattern

    related to lawsuit

    DATE: 3/5/05 DAY: ~~SUNDAY~~

    TIME: 10:40 AM

    Phase of moon: 3 past last

    quarter

    weather: Sunny, not too

    warm

    Emotions: Just had fight

    about pres / leader.

    Name of ritual:

    Tarot meditation